15/02/01

I love you so much ya agmal we a7la Setty. You rock me and rock my world! You drive me mad. You excite me beyond words. Hearing your voice ... seeing you ... seeing your photos ... they all make me melt. I cannot express my feelings when I see your photos ... when I see your beautiful face and your heavenly smile ... or when I dream about touching and caressing your beautiful face ... or kissing your sexy lips. You have a body of Goddess! A body I long to touch, smell, kiss, lick and worship. The form of your shape, the color of your skin, the smoothness of your body ... whether it is your face, your neck, your shoulders, your arms, your hands, your fingers, your back, your boobs, your torso, your ass, your pussy, your thighs, your legs, your feet, your toes ... they all make me melt.

Ohhhh ya Setty! Your feet! ... Your feet rock me ya Setty ... They are so beautiful and so very sexy. They drive me mad! When I see photos of your beautiful feet and your sexy toes, my heart flutters, my body trembles, my hands shake, my knees wobble ... And, all I can think about is that I want to be there ... with you ... at your feet. I want to be there. I want to be kneeling at your beautiful feet ... watching them, smelling them, touching them, kissing them, licking them, sucking them, worshiping them ...  every inch of them ... your toes, between your toes, your feet balls, your arches, your heels, your feet tops, your ankles ... every single inch ...  I want to be there ... at you feet ... your loving, adoring, doting pet ... submitting to you ... belonging to you ... taking care of you ... serving you ... worshiping you. Such incredible and powerful feelings.

Thank you ya Setty. Thank you ya agmal we a7la Setty. Thank you for rocking me and rocking my world. Thank you for allowing me to feel these indescribable feelings. Thank you for owning me. Thank you for allowing me to be yours. I love you soooo much ya Setty. Soooo very very very very very very much! You own me ... I am yours ... You are Setty!

14/02/01

I miss you ya Setty. I miss speaking with you. I miss hearing your voice. I miss listening to your laugh. I miss seeing you. I miss you. And, I am thinking about you all the time. I am thinking about kissing you. About kneeling at your feet. About submitting to you. About kissing your feet. About worshiping your beautiful pussy. About kissing your sexy ass. About massaging your rocking body. About shaving your legs. About running your bath. About giving you a shower. About brushing your hair. About hugging you. About sleeping beside you. About sleeping at your feet. About preparing your breakfast. About serving you breakfast in bed. About watching you fall asleep. About helping you change your clothes. About taking your shoes off. About washing your feet. About massaging your feet. About putting your shoes on. About being fucked by you. About feeling you inside of me. About fucking you. About driving you around. About running your errands. About fixing your drink. About making you bread and butter. About making you meals. About eating at your feet. About living with you. About living for you. About pleasing you. About making you happy. I am thinking about you all the time ya Setty. I miss you ya Setty. I love you so much ya Setty. So very very very much. I love you and I miss you ya Setty.

13/02/01

Setty 7abeebet alby! Ottettek misses you and hopes you are having a good sleep. I feel very happy when I do something that succeeds in pleasing you, cheering you, exciting you, making you smile, or making you laugh. I love making you happy. I so love when you are happy, and wish you would always be happy ... and, I love it a lot more when I am the one who is causing your happiness. It makes me feel useful ... even if for a little tiny bit ... but your happiness is not even close to being tiny. It is huge for me. It is the one thing I wish most. I guess that is probably the reason I have started writing and continued to maintain writing this journal ... only to please you ... Setty ... we 7abebty ... we rou7 alby. I felt very happy today when you told me that my meows excited you; it is the reason I made them and sent them to you ... to please you! Thank you ya agmal we a7la Setty for allowing me to feel happy ... just for pleasing you. I love you so much ya agmal we a3zam we a7la Setty. I love you so very very very very very much ... and I love being your otta ... meow ... meow ...

12/02/01

I missed you today ya a7la Setty, but I was very happy to see your designs - and the video of the dog. Thank you very much for sharing them with me ya agmal we a7la Setty. I love you so much. Every minute that I spend without chatting with you, speaking with you, listening to your voice, seeing you makes me miss you. I so love hearing your voice when I wake up ... it brightens my day ... and, I so love hearing your voice before I go to bed ... it brightens my dreams. I have been dying to sleep for about 4 hours now, but I am resisting. I am trying to stay awake for as long as I can. Because, I do not wish to fall asleep without listening to your voice first. I will try to stay awake for as long as I can, hoping I could hear Setty's beautiful voice before I sleep. That way I know my sleep would be a lot more better: more relaxed, peaceful, comfortable, a lot more happier ... and I might perhaps have some memorable dreams of agmal Setty. I cannot tell you how much I love dreaming about you ya Setty! All these feelings are very new for me, but I love them. I feel happy when I hear your voice and listen to your laughter ya Setty. They make my day - and night - a lot more better. I love you so much ya Setty.

11/02/01

These days, I am constantly feeling happy, cheerful, and excited ... and, it is all because of you ya agmal we a7la Setty. I wonder if you know the kind of power and effect you have on me. Every time you tell me that you love me, I loose a couple of seconds from life. I literally do. I become so excited and happy to the extent that I become fixated on your words. I loose consciousness for a few seconds. I regain my consciousness only a few seconds later, after I had lost a few seconds from life. But, I do not loose my happiness and excitement. I remain happy and excited and my love for you duplicates. My gratefulness towards you for allowing me to feel so happy and excited makes me fall in love so much more with you ... ya agmal we a7la we a3zam Setty. I so love you and worship you. I am so head over heels for you. You rock me and rock my world. You are so incredible beautiful, gorgeous, and phenomenally amazing. I am so in love with you ya Setty. No words could convey these feelings I have for you or how happy and excited your love makes me feel. Thank you ya Setty. Thank you for allowing me to love you. Thank you for allowing me to love you more every day. Thank you for allowing me to be yours. Thank you for allowing me to live for you. You are Setty ... and, I am so madly in love with you.

10/02/01

It is fascinating how I love you more and more every day! Your happy, loving side is so completely irresistible, mind blowing, heart enchanting, and utterly captivating! I feel excited and my breath becomes heavy only thinking about it and remembering it. The entire day today, I kept reading and re-reading your messages, seeing your photos, remembering your voice and recalling your words. Talking with you this morning, I was in such a love trance. I was so under your spell. You are so incredible ya Setty ... absolutely incredible ... and I love you so much. I love you so much more and more, day after day.

After our phone conversation this morning, all I could think about was how much I wish I could feel you inside of me. I never felt that way towards anyone else before, but with you, I think about it quite often. It is probably because how submissive I feel towards you. How I love being your otta. How I love being your bitch. How I love being yours. I really love how I love you, yet I also love how I fear you at the same time.  I fear upsetting you. I fear being scolded by you. I fear being punished by you. I fear not being able to speak with you or hear your voice. I fear you thinking less of me. I fear you loving me less. I love you so much, yet at the same time, because of how much I love you and how submissive I feel towards you, I also fear you.

I love everything about you ya Setty. Everything! I think about you and remember you all the time. I love you so much. I am possessed by your love. I love you so much ya Setty.

09/02/01

Setty 7abeebet alby! I love you so much! I know that I love you so much because of so many reasons. In addition to my very strong feelings for you, in addition to how my heart flutters when I see you, in addition to how happy I feel when I hear your voice, in addition to how much I love seeing your smile, in addition to how much I love listening to your laughter, in addition to how much I enjoy speaking or chatting with you, in addition to how much I think and dream about you ... in addition to all these aspects, I know that I love you so much for many many others too.

I know that I love you so much because I fear upsetting you, like I never feared upsetting anyone before. I know that I love you so much because I feel jealous, like I never felt that way about anyone before. I know that I love you so much because I am always thinking about you, like I never thought about anyone to that extent before. I know that I love you so much because I am always dreaming about being with you and serving you, like I never thought about anyone before. I know that I love you so much because I worry about your comfort and safety, like I never worried about anyone before. I know that I love you because I am always thinking about submitting and surrendering myself to you, like I never thought that way about anyone before. I know that I love you so much because I enjoyed and miss receiving pain from you, like I never felt that way before. I know that I love you so much because I am always thinking about feeling you inside of me, like I never felt that way before. I know that I love you so much because I am always dreaming about spending my entire life at your feet and with you, like I never thought that way about anyone before. I know that I love you because I want nothing more than to please you, your pleasure is my utmost desire, like I never felt that way towards anyone before. I know that I love you so much because I never valued or respected anyone's ideas, thoughts and opinions, like I value and respects yours before. I know that I love you so much because I love obeying you, like I never did with anyone else before. I know that I love you so much, because I never loved anyone that way before.

I worry about you. I worry when you get injured. I worry when you feel pain. I worry when you feel frustrated. I worry when I do not hear your voice. I worry when you do not sound happy. I worry when you do not laugh. I worry when you do not sleep well. I worry when you do not wish to see a doctor. I worry when you are upset. I worry when you hang up on me. I worry when you do not respond to me. I worry about you, like I never worried about anyone else before.

I love you so much ya Setty! So very very very very very much!