I miss you a lot ya Setty, and I love you very much.
Communication is the primary cornerstone of any successful relationship. Be it a relationship between lovers, friends, business partners, life partners, teammates, coaches and players, siblings, parents and kids, teachers and students, national allies, landlords and tenants, leaders and followers ... whatever the relationship, communication is a significant and necessary component for success. Poor communication is always a recipe for trouble ... and, lack of communication is undoubtedly a recipe for failure.
While I have not thought about this before, reflecting on it, I can sort of deduce why I have consistently maintained writing this journal for you, but never for anyone else. I can conclude that I never cared to write a journal for anyone else because I never cared to maintain communication with anyone else .. because I never cared about maintaining my relationship with anyone else ... but not you. Because I care about you like I never cared about anyone else ... because I love you like I never loved anyone else ... because I care about my relationship with you like I never cared about my relationship with anyone else ... because I want to maintain my relationship with you like I never did with you any one else ... because of these reasons, I started and have continued to write this journal for you like I never did with anyone else ... because I care about the success of my relationship with you like I never did with anyone else, and because I never wanted to be with anyone else like I want to be with you ... because I love you like I never loved or will love anyone else.
You taught me many things. It is one of the many reasons that I love you. And, I love you for a lot of many different reasons. I love so many different things about you. But, the one aspect that attracted me most to you was your intellect and intelligence. I always loved listening to you, learning about your thoughts and seeing things from your perspective ... which was not always consistent with mine ... but it was always intelligent ... and I loved it. I still remember our very first long conversation, which was after our first meeting ... and how you helped me remember things about myself that I myself had long forgotten. I always remember and re-remember many of our succeeding long conversations, and while I cannot always recall all the conversation details, I clearly remember how I always enjoyed them - a lot! - whether the conversations were in person or on the phone. I always remember and re-remember many of our conversations. I even often go back and read our very first conversations (which were not on Whatsapp). The one aspect that has consistently been present in all of my fond and loving memories of you is how much we enjoyed communication and how long our conversations have always been.
We, both, have many similarities and many differences. Yet, we have both previously stated our mutual lack of belief in distant relationships and our understanding of the potential difficulties, challenges and hardships. Since communication is not only limited to words whether visual or verbal, it also includes facial expressions, body language, gestures, and touch, among others, there is no wonder that distant relationships are difficult. You tasked me with maintaining this, our, relationship, which is a task that I dearly value ... because, I love you and I want nothing more than the success of this relationship ... not for just now ... but forever. From the deepest bottom of my core, I want you ya Setty ... from the deepest core of my being, I want to spend my entire life at your feet, serving you, loving you, pleasing you and worshiping you ... I want to spend my entire life with and for you. I love you so much ya Setty.
I know that something has been off recently, and I have no doubt you know it too. To maintain our love, I am asking you to open your sole and speak with me ya Setty. To speak with me from your heart ... not your mouth. I am asking you to communicate with me ya Setty. I believe that communication was one of the primary vehicles that led to our love ... when you helped me rediscover myself ... when we spent the whole night at Mena House ... when I helped you find the Pokemon ... when you told me about your 20 desires ... when we dined at Thomas ... when we had breakfast at the Marriott ... and when we spent hundreds of the other hours speaking ... We were always communicating ... and, I think communication is also the key for maintaining our love.
I love you so much ya Setty ... more than words alone could ever convey ....
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