Setti, Mistress, Lover, Goddess! You fill my heart, my soul with so many emotions. Sometimes, my heart finds it impossible to hold them all. So, many of them escape out in the form of whimpers, moans, confessions of love and adoration, and also tears. You have taught me ... No, not taught. You have led me to discover and continue leading me to discover many feelings that I had never experienced in my earlier life. And, some I never even realized they exist. One of these new feelings is dependency. Since my early childhood, I have always been a very independent person. I cannot recall a time when I felt I needed or depended on someone else. Today, I feel very dependent on you.
My heart flutters when I see your smile. I can still feel the beautiful feeling I felt when I walked towards your table, holding your bread on a plate, and you looked up at me with your mesmerizing smile. It is such a vivid memory, and such a beautiful feeling I can never forget. I smile when I see your smile. I feel happy when I hear your laugh. I feel sad when you are unhappy. I feel pain when I am unable to take care of you. I feel fear when you are absent. I feel safe when you tell me you love me. I feel anxious waiting for your next call. I feel jealous when you are with someone else. I feel horny dreaming about you. All my thoughts, feelings and moods are dependent on you. Throughout my life, I have always been quite independent. This new feeling of dependency is totally new to me. It scares me because I cannot control it. It controls me.
What is even more scary is that I know that these overwhelming and controlling feelings are still at their beginnings. They are still infants, but continue to grow day after day. If they are so powerful and controlling right now, I wonder how they would be months and years down the road.
I love you so much ya Setti. I love you. I adore you. I worship you. And, I am dependent on you. I need you ya Setti. I need you very much! You are everything I ever dreamed about ... or wished for. You are a Goddess. You are my Goddess. You are Setti! I love you.
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