Today is my first month anniversary! When I started writing this journal I was doubtful I could keep it up for more than a few days, or a couple of weeks at most. As I mentioned before, I do not enjoy writing, and I have repeatedly failed keeping or maintaining any kind of journal in the past. Then, I discovered that I loved writing it ... for you ... because it pleased you ... because I love you like I never loved anyone before ... because I love pleasing you and making you happy, more than anything else. So, my doubt transformed to certainty. I became certain that I was going to be able to write this journal and maintain it for as long as you desire ... I started looking forward to my week anniversaries and became anxious to reach my first month anniversary, second month anniversary, first year anniversary, second year anniversary, first decade anniversary... till the end of my time. I envisioned a future where I would be happy, proud and celebrating every milestone I would break writing this journal for you. What I never imagined was that I would be feeling this way on my first month anniversary, instead of being happy, proud and celebrating it.
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