I miss you so much ya Setty. Please do not understand what I am about to write as complaining. Per your desire, I am only sharing my thoughts and feelings. I am truly very happy that you have been allowing me the privilege of speaking with you and seeing you. Every time I speak with you or see you, I feel truly happy. I think you can sense it in my voice. I think you can sense my love, adoration and happiness in my voice when you allow me to speak with you or see you. Yet, at the same time, while you have been allowing me the privilege of speaking with you, which I am very grateful for, I feel you have still been holding back and not allowing me to know you more. I have asked you several things, and you have responded by saying you did not wish to talk about them at that time. You have indicated that there are things you want to speak with me about, then later forgot what they were, or changed your mind. I understand that the time difference could be confusing and that it is possible that the timing was just off. Yet, sometimes I wonder whether you are holding back; not allowing me to get closer to you. I love you so much ya Setty. I am completely and madly in love with you. There is nothing I wish more than being completely and totally yours, knowing everything about you, being your closest friend, lover, slave, otta, bitch, and anything and everything you would want me to be. I understand it is a privilege, not a right. So, I can never demand such a thing. I am only sharing my thoughts, feelings, dreams and wishes.
I missed you soooooo much yesterday and today ya Setty. I am very sorry I had such a long day today and that when my cellphone died, I left it in the charger and was not able to retrieve it back and keep it on me. In addition to the long day, I thought you were sleeping. I repeatedly mentioned that you rocked and continue to rock my world. I wrote and mentioned that you have completely changed my life. I am no longer happy with my current life and I cannot understand or remember how I was one day happy with my life ... if you were not part of it! One of the aspects that you changed in my life, which I only noticed today, is how I have been constantly holding to my cellphone since I started speaking with you. Before meeting you, this was the complete opposite. I used to be famous for not answering my phone. Not because I do not want to, but because I never used to carry it on me. I used to always leave it lying somewhere while I went about doing various stuff. I used to have a reputation for that. People used to be surprised if I ever answered any of their calls. However, since meeting you, I have become the complete opposite. I have been constantly walking around with my phone in my hand. Not even in my pocket. It is always in my hand, in font of my eyes. I do it for you. Only you, and no one else but you. Setty rou7 alby, whom I so madly love, adore and worship.. It is always in my hand because I am always longing to speak or chat with you. I am always waiting for you to read my message(s), send me a message, or acknowledge my in any way. I am always waiting for my beloved Setty .., waiting on You hand and foot. I love you so much ya agmal we a7la Setty, and I miss you soooo very much!
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