21/01/01

I miss you so much ya Setty. I miss speaking with you a lot! Your texts sort of indicate that you are feeling better today. I hope it is true, and not my wishful thinking . I read the post you forwarded to me many times. I am happy you think it is wise. I see its rationale, and I hope you will decide to follow its embedded advice. I hope that you always remember and are aware of how much I love you and care for you, and how I would love nothing more than to be close to you, on all levels: emotionally, mentally, and physically. I hope you realize how I would love nothing more than to learn about everything that you are thinking and experiencing, and think with you and for you. I care about nothing more than your happiness ya Setty. I wish I could be of any use for you. I care about you so much, and I wish I could be part of your life. I just love you so much ya Setty.

In the past couple of days, I remembered and relived (in my mind) almost all of our meetings. I remembered the first time when we met in the club then I drove you home. The second time when I picked you up, played you the french songs, and we spent the night at Mena House where I served you bread and butter, then I knelt for you, kissed your feet and begged you to take me in before taking you home. And, how you showed me the place where you used to live on our way home. The third time when you denied me the privilege of seeing you (in spite of Zamalek's miracle), then changed your mind because I was wearing pink! And, how I loved receiving pain from you and loved worshiping your amazing body and pussy. Then, we went out and had dinner together after spending a good amount of time searching in Zamalek. And, the fourth and last time when we met at the club, then went to your house where I loved listening to your wishes, reading your poetry and seeing your drawings, then spent this glorious morning having breakfast together at the Marriott and brought the croissant on our way home. I remembered and loved all the details of all of our four meetings. This is not the first time I replay these four days in my mind. I am always remembering, re-remembering and re-living those four best days of my life. I love you so much ya Setty. I am so eager to spend more time with you, all my time with you, loving you, serving you, obeying you, adoring you, and worshiping you. You mean the world to me. I love you soooooooooo much! I miss you sooo much ya Setty. Soooooooooooo much.